January 2012
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December 2011
3 posts
October 2011
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September 2011
5 posts
Ramblings
Sometimes I have arguments just with my own thoughts wondering if im asking too much from others & I think- the only things that matter are those people you care about or those that really care about you or even those random things that make the nerves calm and the smiles appear. Maybe at times you ask a lot of everyone else, but generally that’s only when you don’t have one of...
I’ve always felt like a tumbleweed. I’m sitting on the street lit porch watching two girls who speak a different language move their things into what’s supposed to be my room. I smiled. I told them to go ahead and make theirselves at home. I doubt the next place I move will feel anything close to home at all… But what would? I know everyone goes through these things, but my...
August 2011
8 posts
2 tags
“What is terrible is not death but the lives people live or don’t live up until...”
– The Captain is out to Lunch - Charles Bukowski (via henrycharlesbukowski)
July 2011
19 posts
“how sweetly sad it seems
how sad and sweet
passing lonely people on
the...”
– Open All Night - Charles Bukowski (via henrycharlesbukowski)
“if it doesn’t come bursting out of you
in spite of everything,
don’t do it....”
– So you want to be a writer - Charles Bukowski (via henrycharlesbukowski)
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woke up to my first panic attack in about a year. I don’t even know what time it started, but my heart beat just slowed down to normal. I still don’t feel right though. Ugh- I hate this.
All of my muscles are sore now. I feel lightheaded.
..so jealous of everyone who doesn’t have panic disorder. Seriously- be very glad you don’t. Being convinced your dying or having a...
June 2011
20 posts
“They buy my books — the defeated, the demented and the damned — and I am proud...”
– Charles Bukowski (via henrycharlesbukowski)
....day 3.
Of the MC (Master Cleanse).
(MC is a detox program that allows you to have all of the calories you need, but you can only consume the “lemonade,” which consists of organic lemons, organic maple syrup grade B, and cayenne pepper)
So yeah, day 3….
I haven’t craved alcohol as much as I would have thought I would. Usually during the weekend, I love a glass of wine or 2. It...
Professor newhagen
“the way you watch news- turn off the sound, turn out the lights, put on the doors and take a psychotropic drug. Try it”
“Uhmm uhm.. Suddenly I’m thinking in Spanish”
“lady gaga is forreal”
“well all die a heat death… And end up on slabs cold”
“no coffee, no water. No coffee, no water!”
Wow
“born like this
into this
as the chalk faces smile
as Mrs. Death laughs
as...”
– Charles Bukowski - Born Into This (via henrycharlesbukowski)
Strangling my form.
I’m just a window pane, just a small blue tub of water that cools into ice in the freezer, becomes creepy cloudy. Bubbles in frozen, moving nowhere towards no. No. I’m a window pane, slightly insane.
I’m listening. I swear I’m listening. I might be sipping or slipping or spinning. I might burp out a word or two about me and mine and moreover manipulation. Manipulate...
